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I’m turning 40 next month. I want to commemorate the event in some way, yet all of the ideas I have require money I shouldn’t spend and time away from my boys.
Is this a midlife crisis?
There are so many days that I could just pack a backpack and go. I want to explore and document and learn. Those are hard things to do when you have a job and a family and a mortgage. Even just me and my camera and a convertible on a trek across the US, that would work.
I was lucky enough to have the time and resources to backpack through Europe in my early 20’s. It gave me the bug for travel. I want to see the world. I want to capture its colors. I want to photograph its details–its every day. How do I make that a career? at 40? with three kids?
I feel so selfish wishing for freedom. I know in my heart I wouldn’t give up what I have, but the temptation is mighty powerful some days.
And then there are all of these earthquakes… Did the Mayans have it right? Will the world end in 2012? What would we all be doing if it were?
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February 28th, 2010 at 7:20 am
Me Too!
I’m turning 40 next month, too…I’m excited about it, and I too want to celebrate it in a special way. For me, that way is getting myself (sans kids & hub) away to NYC this summer to go to Blogher –A long weekend in NYC, *alone* (save for the couple of thousand BlogHers attending!)
Do NOT feel selfish, btw, for craving freedom from the everyday job, family, etc.–being the best parent and spouse you can be can’t happen unless you take care of YOU first. Sometimes that means being selfish–but it’s the kind of selfish that means you put on your own oxygen mask before helping the kids traveling with you on the plane.
Happy Birthday next month–two other fabulous women hitting 40 this year: Queen Latifah & Tina Fey. We are in very good company!
February 28th, 2010 at 1:32 pm
I turn 40 April 27 – YAY new domain!!!!!!!
February 28th, 2010 at 10:10 pm
You only turn 40 once and even with the best preparation and a devil-may-care attitude it’s a doozie. Don’t pull out the whip and turn a birthday activity wish into something over which to feel guilty. Instead, make it come true. It’ll be worth it, in the moment and for years to come. Trust me on this. I’ll never regret my choices for how I celebrated 40, regardless of what those choices cost.
February 28th, 2010 at 11:48 pm
If the world ends in 2012, you certainly want to be in some more exotic locale during the final moments…. book that flight to Bora Bora.
March 1st, 2010 at 4:50 pm
I certainly enjoyed the cruise with my college friends…it was totally worth it!
March 2nd, 2010 at 12:35 pm
Oh, I’m with you. If an adventure showed up at my door right now, I could take it and not even pack. And I get frustrated at times that I can’t because of the whole family thing. Then comes the guilt. Guess it’s finding the balance in there somewhere, right?
So I’ve decided that it’s time for the kids to experience some adventures as well. Not sure how that will look — but if I never book them, they’ll never happen.
March 4th, 2010 at 10:29 pm
I’m with you Amy. I think about just grabbing my camera and going quite often.
March 4th, 2010 at 10:40 pm
Diana, Maybe we could do a photography road trip?